My Hadal Hideaway

It’s Almost Time…

Two more weeks and we confront an event we have been waiting for anxiously since middle school. The real entry into adult hood: graduating high school. Just the thought of throwing our hats up in the air with all of my dearest friends and family in the presence makes me want to cry! It’s such a bitter sweet thing! I will miss the high school routine and being so naturally sheltered. I will miss seeing my friends as much and taking on roles in my school in things like Student Government, choir, and Hillcrest Television. I will miss teachers, janitors, & administrators, believe it or not! There is just something about high school that is unlike any other! It’s the pinnacle of our youth! It’s where you start finding out who you are & who you want to be. High school is the place where you create yourself.
Hillcrest will always have a special place in my heart. No matter how much I’ve complained about it falling apart or smelling… It’s been a home to me for the past four years.
So, long Hillcrest… It’s been nice.
:)

I’m Afraid of Spiders

The entire drive home from my friends house, I attempted to get a huge spider off my windshield. I did everything possible. Knocked on where it was to get it to move into the vicinity that my wipers would reach. Wiper fluid. The rapid go-stop method. Driving really fast to get it to blow off…. I even played out the scene in my head if I were to get pulled over. How stupid I would feel when the officer asked me why I was speeding… Eventually it walked off the windshield area. Which is the worst thing that could have happened. I didn’t know where it was! I finally reached home and I took a deep breath. I opened the door… Made sure (to the best of my ability) that nothing fell down and then jumped out of my car and slammed my door. Then shook off for a few seconds, hoping that if the spider was on me, that would have taken care of it. I’m still thinking about it. Now I’ve written a blog about it. I’m afraid of spiders.

oh.. “THAT” Blog: "Tonight, we are young..."

I don’t want all of my dreams to be dreams…

Do I have a chance at achieving these wonderful fantasies I have thought up? It’s not like they’re anywhere near unrealistic, but they’re just not what was predicted for me. Should I take a shot at these reveries, or should I just let them be my castle in the air? I feel like I’ve got a chance at them, and the life to be had inside my desires is soooo great, so inspirational, and beautiful.
The war between the head & the heart is the hardest battle to be fought. I’ve been fighting it and I do not know which side is going to be victorious. I do know which one I’m hoping it will be…
I’m in a tough predicament of what I truly want my future to with hold.

There will be many beginnings, this is just one of them…

The transition from high school to college is going to be a big one… but I think I’m ready! There are things that I will miss about high school, like seeing your friends everyday, not always having to take class seriously, having close relationships with teachers, being involved, and every now and then holding things like assemblies and dances. There are so many things in high school that if you don’t get the chance to do them now, you won’t ever get the chance to do them later… but I guess that fact goes along with every other stage of life as well. 

I’m trying to take advantage of high school life. Not saying that I’m “living it up” or “partying hard”, but I’m trying to be involved in things that the opportunity will never rise again later in life. Being the Student Body President this year has been such a privilege. I love my school and I’m glad I get to be the one that represents it, and I really hope that others see that I’ve been trying to do a decent job at that. Hillcrest Television and Cabinet have been two of the greatest things I could ask for in High school. Both clubs have kept me grounded, busy, working hard, and humble. I would never trade a moment that I’ve spent working for either of them. 

I am so thankful that I got to participate in the HTV Bus Tour with the staff of 2012, during the summer. It was a one of a kind experience that had so many memories that I will never forget. I will get to go to Hawaii with the same lovely group of people this Spring. I am looking forward to that more than anything! I know It’s not quite the time yet to be saying “goodbye’s”, but (being a senior and all) It’s the mindset we’ve been in all year! 

Even though i’ve complained about how scattered, crazy, and chaotic my senior year has been, I wouldn’t take a second of it back and I wouldn’t trade it for any body else’s. I hope that my kids are lucky enough to have a childhood as innocent and as unforgettable as mine. I hope that they find friends as wonderful as mine, and i hope they take advantage of every moment they get to do exactly what they want. 

I always say, “I hope these are not the best times of our lives.” Even though I still hold true to that, these times weren’t bad at all. 

Wonderland

I think I need a dream interpreter. All my dreams are completely insane & they never make since. I really want to know what my subconscious is trying to tell me. Or is my subconscious even telling me anything at all? Most of the time I think that all the dream reading stuff is bologna. I think that dreams just allow you to use more of your imagination. During consciousness there are too many worldly things weighing down our thoughts that make us feel like we can’t be unrealistic. 

Think about living in a dream world. Everything would be so backwards and nonsensical. I think that it would be a lot like experiencing what Alice experienced in her Wonderland. I know that in my dreams a lot of things don’t make any since at all, but I don’t realize it until after I wake up and think it all through again. That’s when i know it was just a dream. 

Then again, why can’t we just except things that don’t make since. It seems like the very best things in life make no since at all! Things like: Santa, the tooth fairy, even love, or the most important thing in life, my belief in Christ! All these things require a lot of faith and trust. That’s something that we could all use a lot more of. So, let’s take a leap of faith. Start accepting things when they don’t make since; life could be much more exciting, just like our dreams.